Archive for May, 2007

DEI-vorce

May 13, 2007 at 3:47 pm · Filed under NA$CAR

That’s what they’re calling it.

Dale Earnhardt Jr. announced the other day that he is now a Free Agent. He is leaving the company founded by his late father at seasons end.

He was unable to come to an agreement with his step-mother Teresa. Jr. wants to win races and wants to win championships and he felt that he would be unable to do it as things were.

There’s a lot of speculation as to who he may drive for. Some feel it may be the man his father drove for Richard Childress. Bobby Ginn a hotelier who purchased into what was MB2 racing is looking to get into the bidding war for Jr.

Jr. says it’s not about money, but about opportunity. Opportunity for wins and championships. He’s 32 and has yet to win his first Cup Championship. Being the son of a legend automatically has certain expectations. While Jr. may never get to 76 wins or 7 Championships, he would at least like to add to his current  17 wins and get at least 1 championship.

Jr. has asked for a few weeks to explore his options before the media bombards him. He would like to discuss options with teams as well as see what the reception would be with the other drivers and the crew members. If he can’t find a fit, then he may bring his Busch JR Motorsports up to Cup FT.

Jr. knows that fans and some of his current crew members may be sore at him, but hopes that they will forgive him.

Most of Jr. Nation and Earnhardt nation will follow him wherever he goes.  A few die hard Earnhard fans will stay. Many feel that DEI (or TEI as many feel it truly is now) will be nothing more than a museum within a year.

Only time will tell, but I wish Jr. the best as he explores his options. This was not an easy decision for him and I know that he will take the necessary time to decide on the fate of his future.

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Mother’s Day

May 13, 2007 at 3:37 pm · Filed under Dating and Relationships

Today is another Mother’s Day and a day that as always, I’m not looking forward to. Not just because once again my dream of being a mother continues to disappear as each day goes by, but the fact that even though I was raised with a Mother, I don’t feel that I had one.

Many women feel that their mother’s are their best friends. They feel bad if a day goes by that they haven’t spoken to their mother. Their mother was their biggest cheerleader and the one who made them the woman that they are today.

I didn’t have any of that. All I had was the continued beratement and how I was worthless and a waste of space. And the world continues to verify that every day.

I never had a mother who truly cared  about me. She never spent time with me, never taught me anything (part of why I have no clue when it comes to cooking and never truly know if I’m matching when it comes to clothes), never made me feel loved.

One time years ago, she brought up how we never had any kind of relationship, well, that’s all her fault. SHE never wanted to have one with me.  A few times I did try to reach out, but it never changed anything.

Many women feel a void when they lose their mother, but I doubt I will. I don’t feel one now. Yes every once in a while she’ll do something nice, but it still doesn’t make up for the lousy childhood I had.

The only time I went anywhere was if it was school or church related, as we never took a vacation. It didn’t even have to be anything fancy, a trip to the Bay or a museum. A train ride somewhere. Just to be able to say I went somewhere.

I’m not close to women and have a hard time talking to them. I think a lot of it has to do with the lack of relationship and lack of ability to confide in her.

I know it’s not just me as she seems to be the same with all her kids. Heck, my one brother would probably still be alive if she let him come stay. He became homeless and she wouldn’t even let him stay until he could get back on his feet.  He ended up killing some folks at a library opening and then the police killed him in what I feel was overkill. He probably was tired of living.

If I ever realize my dream of being a mother, I vow to do everything that I can to make sure my children are as happy as possible. I don’t have to be their best friend per se, but I want them to know that I’ll always be there for them. That they can have happy memories of childhood and be able to see things and not just read about them.

But at the rate I’m going, that’s never going to happen, so it’s just another dream that will never be fulfilled.  I was raised without a dad and always promised myself that my kids wouldn’t have to deal with that, but if I can ever get a job and make enough to not only support me but kids, I wouldn’t mind being a single parent.

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Rice and Veggies

May 13, 2007 at 3:14 pm · Filed under Food Yummy Food

Nothing fancy here, just took some Rice and added some veggies to it!

I cooked up some brown rice and then made some veggies to go with it.

I heated some oil and garlic in a pan and then added some spinach just to wilt it a bit. Then added chopped mini peppers, a can of corn and a can of black beans. Since I’m new to cooking still, not sure how to correctly experiment with the spices. But I did add some cumin and chili powder. Not sure if they “go” together, but they did add some taste to it :) !

Rice and Veggies

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Week 2

May 6, 2007 at 10:03 am · Filed under Fitness

Last week wasn’t done quite as planned, so we’ll try again this week :)

This week, I have Hip Hop Abs on deck. I’ve had them for a bit, but I haven’t had a chance to do all of them.

This week I have:

Sunday–Rest

Monday–Fat Blasting Cardio 2

Tuesday–Ab Sculpt 2

Wednesday–Total Body Burn

Thursday–Fat Blasting Cardio 2

Friday–Fat Blasting Cardio 2

Saturday–Ab Sculpt 2

I’m going to aim to stick with this schedule, but if I have additional time I’ll do my Tae Bo as well.

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Bike

May 3, 2007 at 10:51 am · Filed under Fitness

Well, with the new work hours, I had to get a bike. With the current bus schedule, the last one leaves at 6, so I wouldn’t catch it. Even when they go to summer hours, the next one would be 7, so I wouldn’t get home until 7:30. So needed to put the pedal to the medal!

Work is about 3 miles or so away, so it’s not too bad! I’ve had to deal with some rain this week. Yesterday, it was horrible but I made it home in one piece! We normally don’t get a lot of the bad weather in these parts. It usually breaks up in Fort Worth and then Dallas gets the main part and then we get the remnants.

It takes me about 25-30 minutes currently, I’m almost better on the bit of hills. Once I get used to those then it’ll be a much better ride :)

Here’s a picture:

Bike

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